January 18, 2011

  • Reality

    I want to preserve a memory here:

    My grandpa is one of the coolest guys I know.  When we were kids he would record Japanese television shows and send it oversea to Canada and among those was Dragon Ball.  Living in Canada and having the privilege to watch Dragon Ball before it was even subbed or dubbed?  I think it made my childhood so rich and full of imagination that it literally took over my world.

    When I was a kid my mom took me to a park and there was a huge honey comb shaped jungle gym and when I saw that I only had one thing on my mind.  That was to climb to the very top and then do a few front spins and land perfectly just like they do in Dragon Ball.  When I got up to the top I remember looking down and it was so high up that if I jumped I would physically hurt myself so I became paralyzed by the thought of being injured and started to cry.  A stranger had to come to the rescue and help me get down safely but in that moment I realized that reality sucks but  it's there and that we're bound by these rules that govern us and whats in our heads is a whole different story.

    But reality isn't all that bad it can be quite amusing. So my older brother was there too and after I was safely down I remember seeing from afar my brother hit another kid on the back of the head and when the kid turned around and started to cry he ran away as fast as he could but what he doesn't know is that I was watching the whole ordeal and I couldn't stop laughing because I bet he meant to hit me instead.  It's funny how siblings feel like they share a sense of responsibility for each others actions I bet he was embarrassed that I was crying up on top of that jungle gym making a big commotion.  But to this day I have yet to confront my brother and ask him why he hit that kid, perhaps my reality in my head can be complete if I ever were to ask but then this story would have to change wouldn't it?  That seems to be the nature of reality, if one thing changes it seems to change the dynamics of everything.  But if I ever do find out the answer.  I'll let you know.