To rant.

6 months absence of xanga as i was contempt in spreading my ideas and words through facebook notes or simply by writing my ideas down in my notebook.  i was contempt.

no longer do i feel that contempt as sharing ideas to personal friends or family isn't the same as ranting to complete strangers and random people. (aka the World)  the significance of it never really hit me till recently when i realized that comfort is the bane to mankind.  it truly is.

when we get too comfortable we lose sight on what is most important...  when i think of this a quote runs in my head over and over from the movie waking life...  the question was this; "which is the most universal human characteristic?  fear... or laziness?"

just hearing that, just by reading that i feel ashamed of my existence.  i, kota alex kawahara born on to this earth september 2 1987 at 1:15 am at the weight of 3,510 g is ashamed.  i have come to the conclusion that every misery, every illness, every unpleasant incident is in fact a by product of my own actions and my own actions alone.  no one has the power to rule my life other than myself.  i make the decisions, i make the connections and i am the one living in this body.  yet i realized that being comfortable and being routine is the essence of manipulation.

those who take action will always rule those who do not take action.

i have finally found a sense of self worth sharing.  it took me 22 years of my life to realize that life is abundant.  life is great and THERE ARE PEOPLE OUT THERE THAT WANTS TO CONTROL how you live, how you eat, how you breathe, how you breed, how you work and how you do everything.

we are at war.  this is a war between ordinary people like you and me and the fight for our TRUE FREEDOM and true self awareness.

i want to let you know this is a rant and has no significance other than personal justification.  why?  because i will not and can not tell people what to believe or what to think... THAT is a decision you must come up with yourself by trusting in no one else BUT yourself.

leaders will destroy their followers (how many have sacrificed their lives for the world leaders?) and followers will always destroy their leaders. (why do presidency change?  why do kings become beheaded?)

i wanna tell you all something.  this may seem far fetched but i want to make a difference to the world...  i want to help the "PEOPLE", fuck the leaders, fuck the rich ass corporate heads, fuck authority all they want is to control you more and take your money and force you to live miserably.

i want EVERYONE TO KNOW that you control your life and no other external force or power can control you.

i'm happy...  i AM HAPPY.  how many people can say that?  that they are content with themselves and that they are happy, and that i feel like i can accomplish everything because i no longer am tied down to what the controllers want.

im truly happy because i am now living in the moment.  enjoying the moment.  and i want to spread the word.

please...  live your moment, your life in the now where it matters the most...  when you worry about the past or the future you lose track of what is really important in your life...

i am signing off for now, but i will definitely be back for more.

so i was pretty sick last week and i think i know why.  im thinking most likey i contracted a minor variation or mutation of the swine flu thats already killed 149 people in mexico... apparently people who go back to their contries get better like any normal flu but people in mexico get it super sick cause of the environment...

anyways i was coughing up like mad so if anyone needs to be warned lol theres shit going around thats pretty strong...  im actually glad i get sick easily but recover super fast... just means my body's building up antibodies to fight back tons of shit lol... good body.

anyways i apologize if i got anyone sick. lol i came to work sick and all so. (stupid move, im not a trooper at all haha)

so yeah... im done blogging for now, PEACE!

brownies are the shit!